Stranger to Happiness

Recently, over a cup of a coffee with a good friend of mine asked me, ” I love how you write, but why don’t you write about happier things?” Its been a few weeks since that chat and I’ve been thinking about the answer. Why don’t I write about things more cheerful and lighthearted? Why…

Euro Trip – Chapter 3

Not Just Another Brick in the Wall Berlin Resilience. Honesty. Self belief. Berlin began sweetly. I had an old lady give me company in the InterCity train I took from Prague to Berlin. While I sat by the window and typed the first 2 chapters, she sat opposite to me and chewed on an apple…

Euro Trip – Chapter 2

Reality Czech! Prague You know how we weave fantasies about ourselves, doing and saying things that we desire? And you know the sinking feeling you get in your middle when what you desire comes true and you realize it isn’t at all like what you expected? Well, Prague gave me a reality check! After much…

Euro Trip – Chapter 1

Osmosis Budapest A formation of ruins. A fusion of the old and the new. But with time and deliberation, a paced withering of what was and stronger foundation for what is and will be. Budapest’s history resonates resilience. In the face of World Wars and ruthless conquests the city has held its ground. And while…

Euro Trip – Prologue

Happenstance A game of chance or designed sequence of events, that’s a question I am yet to answer. But it was a series of coincidences and random events and things falling into place that formed the beginning of this trip. Coincidence is a phenomena contested by many. There are those who state the laws of…

The Yearning Never Stops

The yearning never stops. It has been 10 years since I moved on from it. It has been 15 years and I’ve never had a taste of another. So much as happened since and in between. But the yearning never stops. I’ve tried therapy and religion. Spirituality and decadence. But nothing holy or evil makes…

Shipwrecked

What do you do when chaos strikes? How does one cope when the rug is pulled from under your feet? Where do you go when you’re pushed into darkness? Shipwrecks. When some unforeseen calamity strikes you, catches you unaware and destroys your vessel of comfort and certainty, what do you do? You look for mechanisms…

Cigarette Burns

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust Like a flick of the wrist thrusts away the ashes which lingers, I also need to flick my life and discard the trash. It’s been years now of lighting flames and getting burnt. Of waiting for hopes and dreams and aspirations to give me something other than singing my…

Different Kind Of A Fairy Tale

When the roots are different, how can the same flowers bloom? It was always different. My childhood, experiences and lessons. I have seen and experienced things many around me haven’t even fathomed. I have not seen and experienced things that many have. I am not part of the norm. So why am I comparing myself…

Skin Deep Realities

There comes a time when things fall apart, nothing goes as planned, all expectations are shattered, there are obstacles at every nook and corner, every bend of the road goes uphill and there is no end in sight. You feel frustrated, angry, helpless, afraid, sad, alone, stupid and hopeless. You look back and see how…

My Perfect Pair of Jeans

  You taught me to feel again,  in all the ways that I’d forgotten, I was sheltered in a cocoon I considered could never be broken, you proved me wrong when you breached my shields so easily, made me set my guards down so well,  that I never even knew the person who stepped outside. It felt like I was…

Ride A Magic Carpet

take a ride on a magic carpet fly away from the little things chase those whims and thrills conquer dreams in the realm of kings It seems like I’ve been through a revolving door between fantasy and reality. But oh how tempting it is! To stay back in that wonderland – where nothing is too…