Single Girl 30 Things Challenge

On this St. Valentine’s day, while new couples fawn over each other, married couples try to play nice and the ones who’ve been together for long scoff at the red-colored, heart-shared hoopla, the ones going solo have little to celebrate, and fewer people to celebrate with. So, in my 30th year, and a perpetually singular…

Delving Into Murky Waters

I thought I’d figured myself out. After 30 years of relationships, hurt, highs and lows, I thought I had found my dark and light places. Now it seems like I’d just acknowledged them before. The real acquaintance begins now when I’m finally alone with the noise in my head. I moved out on 19th January…

For the Love of Rainy Days

I finally figured it out. I always wondered why I’d come to love monsoon so much. Not just the rain, but the heady combination of it all – the smell, the sounds, the glorious sight! I used to hate the season of rain when I was a kid. Squelching through the mud to get to…

Stranger to Happiness

Recently, over a cup of a coffee with a good friend of mine asked me, ” I love how you write, but why don’t you write about happier things?” Its been a few weeks since that chat and I’ve been thinking about the answer. Why don’t I write about things more cheerful and lighthearted? Why…

Euro Trip – Chapter 3

Not Just Another Brick in the Wall Berlin Resilience. Honesty. Self belief. Berlin began sweetly. I had an old lady give me company in the InterCity train I took from Prague to Berlin. While I sat by the window and typed the first 2 chapters, she sat opposite to me and chewed on an apple…

Euro Trip – Chapter 2

Reality Czech! Prague You know how we weave fantasies about ourselves, doing and saying things that we desire? And you know the sinking feeling you get in your middle when what you desire comes true and you realize it isn’t at all like what you expected? Well, Prague gave me a reality check! After much…

Euro Trip – Chapter 1

Osmosis Budapest A formation of ruins. A fusion of the old and the new. But with time and deliberation, a paced withering of what was and stronger foundation for what is and will be. Budapest’s history resonates resilience. In the face of World Wars and ruthless conquests the city has held its ground. And while…

Euro Trip – Prologue

Happenstance A game of chance or designed sequence of events, that’s a question I am yet to answer. But it was a series of coincidences and random events and things falling into place that formed the beginning of this trip. Coincidence is a phenomena contested by many. There are those who state the laws of…

The Yearning Never Stops

The yearning never stops. It has been 10 years since I moved on from it. It has been 15 years and I’ve never had a taste of another. So much as happened since and in between. But the yearning never stops. I’ve tried therapy and religion. Spirituality and decadence. But nothing holy or evil makes…

Shipwrecked

What do you do when chaos strikes? How does one cope when the rug is pulled from under your feet? Where do you go when you’re pushed into darkness? Shipwrecks. When some unforeseen calamity strikes you, catches you unaware and destroys your vessel of comfort and certainty, what do you do? You look for mechanisms…

Cigarette Burns

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust Like a flick of the wrist thrusts away the ashes which lingers, I also need to flick my life and discard the trash. It’s been years now of lighting flames and getting burnt. Of waiting for hopes and dreams and aspirations to give me something other than singing my…

Different Kind Of A Fairy Tale

When the roots are different, how can the same flowers bloom? It was always different. My childhood, experiences and lessons. I have seen and experienced things many around me haven’t even fathomed. I have not seen and experienced things that many have. I am not part of the norm. So why am I comparing myself…